I've read about past and present writers who all they do is eat, sleep, drink, teach, and talk writing. Unfortunately, I'm not one of them.
The thing is, I like to do other things. For days, unannounced, I may just read, or sew, or take pictures, or browse Pinterest or Craftgawker, or make crafty things, or watch Hallmark movies. Sometimes I don't always work on my story, sometimes I journal write or write about whether or not I really want to write. There really isn't any pattern to this; I just can't force myself to do one thing for any stretch of time.
Does this happen to you?
When I'm writing I eat, sleep, think, and dream writing and would like to say that I'm a writer. When I'm sewing I eat, sleep, think, and dream sewing and would like to say that I'm a sewer. I have favorites of writing and sewing sites and blogs and when I'm into one I just pooh-pooh the other, but when I switch I wonder how I ever left it behind.
Could I be going mad?
Because of this, I also wrestle with myself and wonder if that means I'm not truly serious about either, or that I don't want to find out how strong I am in either skill and that is why I alternate, but at the same time, I must alternate. I can't just write-write-write nor can I just sew-sew-sew. I feel like I'm betraying my God-given talent by not having the staying power with one but I can't help but wonder ... which one is it? I'm not excellent at either and sometimes I annoy myself at my ridiculous expectations, but why do either if I'm not going to be satisfied at the end?
I have no idea. Maybe it's just who I am and want to find out if there is anyone else out there who feels the same.
Anyone?
The thing is, I like to do other things. For days, unannounced, I may just read, or sew, or take pictures, or browse Pinterest or Craftgawker, or make crafty things, or watch Hallmark movies. Sometimes I don't always work on my story, sometimes I journal write or write about whether or not I really want to write. There really isn't any pattern to this; I just can't force myself to do one thing for any stretch of time.
Does this happen to you?
When I'm writing I eat, sleep, think, and dream writing and would like to say that I'm a writer. When I'm sewing I eat, sleep, think, and dream sewing and would like to say that I'm a sewer. I have favorites of writing and sewing sites and blogs and when I'm into one I just pooh-pooh the other, but when I switch I wonder how I ever left it behind.
Could I be going mad?
Because of this, I also wrestle with myself and wonder if that means I'm not truly serious about either, or that I don't want to find out how strong I am in either skill and that is why I alternate, but at the same time, I must alternate. I can't just write-write-write nor can I just sew-sew-sew. I feel like I'm betraying my God-given talent by not having the staying power with one but I can't help but wonder ... which one is it? I'm not excellent at either and sometimes I annoy myself at my ridiculous expectations, but why do either if I'm not going to be satisfied at the end?
I have no idea. Maybe it's just who I am and want to find out if there is anyone else out there who feels the same.
Anyone?
2 comments:
How refreshing to find someone struggling with the same thing as me! I SO want to just focus on writing but there so much other great stuff to fill my days - not sewing for me but I love crafting or rearranging my home. It's hard (impossible) to be a one-trick-pony ;)
p.s. I borrowed the Marie Curie quote from your banner. That just says it all, doesn't it?!
Hi Alanna! Yes, it is but a funny thing ... shortly after I posted this I looked at my sewing stuff, all my sewing stuff, and decided at that moment I just didn't want to do it anymore. I didn't want it to compete with my writing. Sometimes I think I used it as a reason to not write and now that I have made that decision, I feel liberated. Change is good! Any yes, that quote surprised me. So much can be learned from a person buy a few lines from their heart.
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