Sunday, August 19, 2012

Stick with one thing - is that even possible?

I've read about past and present writers who all they do is eat, sleep, drink, teach, and talk writing. Unfortunately, I'm not one of them.

The thing is, I like to do other things. For days, unannounced, I may just read, or sew, or take pictures, or browse Pinterest or Craftgawker, or make crafty things, or watch Hallmark movies. Sometimes I don't always work on my story, sometimes I journal write or write about whether or not I really want to write. There really isn't any pattern to this; I just can't force myself to do one thing for any stretch of time.

Does this happen to you?

When I'm writing I eat, sleep, think, and dream writing and would like to say that I'm a writer. When I'm sewing I eat, sleep, think, and dream sewing  and would like to say that I'm a sewer. I have favorites of writing and sewing sites and blogs and when I'm into one I just pooh-pooh the other, but when I switch I wonder how I ever left it behind.

Could I be going mad?

Because of this, I also wrestle with myself and wonder if that means I'm not truly serious about either, or that I don't want to find out how strong I am in either skill and that is why I alternate, but at the same time, I must alternate. I can't just write-write-write nor can I just sew-sew-sew. I feel like I'm betraying my God-given talent by not having the staying power with one but I can't help but wonder ... which one is it? I'm not excellent at either and sometimes I annoy myself at my ridiculous expectations, but why do either if I'm not going to be satisfied at the end?

I have no idea. Maybe it's just who I am and want to find out if there is anyone else out there who feels the same.



Alanna said...

How refreshing to find someone struggling with the same thing as me! I SO want to just focus on writing but there so much other great stuff to fill my days - not sewing for me but I love crafting or rearranging my home. It's hard (impossible) to be a one-trick-pony ;)

p.s. I borrowed the Marie Curie quote from your banner. That just says it all, doesn't it?!

Nancy said...

Hi Alanna! Yes, it is but a funny thing ... shortly after I posted this I looked at my sewing stuff, all my sewing stuff, and decided at that moment I just didn't want to do it anymore. I didn't want it to compete with my writing. Sometimes I think I used it as a reason to not write and now that I have made that decision, I feel liberated. Change is good! Any yes, that quote surprised me. So much can be learned from a person buy a few lines from their heart.