Friday, January 28, 2011

Change

Success is never found. Failure is never fatal. Courage is the only thing. - Winston Churchill

I won’t know if I don’t try and I don’t want to have another memory starting with “I wonder what would have happened if I had only...”

Sell a story, publish a book, start a business, move to a warmer climate – never going to happen if it stays a thought.

Knowing is better than wondering and change usually involves risk. Today, right now, I’m opting for risk. I won’t move forward by staying in the same spot, doing the same thing, thinking the same thought, and I would like to feel that I have some control over my financial future, and future in general, even if my personal contribution is slight.

I have accepted me as I am and not how I would like others to see me. Not so easy if you haven’t tried it. I have succeeded in what I have done and have enough faith that will continue.

I have accepted the losses in my life, including those parts that are unhealthy to cling to, and why I cling to them is probably reminiscent of a bad habit – all the more reason to let go. I have a healthy mind, body, and spirit and want to continue to offer more to myself, family, and the planet. I will blog, work on a story and a book, sew, and plan a move back to Arizona. I’m so done with snow and ice and cold. Done.

Now that I have finally left the past I am taking evenly-paced steps onward. This is now truly about discovering me.

Change. Do it.

2 comments:

Murees Dupè said...

Wonderful post! I wish I could embrace life the way you do. I am one of the morons who still try to control everything and often wonder what if, regularly. I hope to one day be so sure and confident of myself as you so that I can just say ''what ever'' and actually mean it. I love your wisdom and your whole attitude towards life. It is inspiring.

Nancy said...

Oh Murees, thank you so much for your support. You aren't a moron and you can also change things in your life. I don't know if it's that I'm confident or crazy, but I do know I need a change and am so tired of disappointing myself by not following through.